serendipity is goal

Anyone read them?

I just finished Hunger and am in the middle of Rage.

I think no matter how cheesy it sounds, the idea of getting teenagers struggling with a mental health issue and putting them in the powerful position of one of the four horsemen of the apocalypse where they then learn how to in turn fight their own demons is..kind of awesome! Haha, well think what you want to think but I’ve never seen it done before - mixing the real life struggles of teens with severe issues such as anorexia and self harm and putting them in a fantasy setting - makes for an interesting read.

I hope my followers are well.

P.S. I’m going to be 19 soon. I have to say, the older I get the more things seem to make sense, the more I understand about myself, the more I can reflect on what happened to me in the past and how I can change my future. I am so inspired to only keep getting better.

I get so much inspiration from this site, a lot of pictures and quotes that lift my heart.

But living in the real world has been pretty good :) the less time I’ve spent on the internet, the more alive I really feel.

I’ve been really getting back into my music, writing and composing, learning new instruments, painting and drawing, just letting myself get back into my stuff. I love life right now. I’m never going back to the old me, the scared and shy and broken me. I can still be vulnerable, that’s important, but I can also stand up for myself and throw myself into life wholeheartedly without reservation, without caring about what other people think. 

I hope all my followers have been well, the few who haven’t unfollowed me since I was last on here hahaha :) I hope you are happy. I hope you’re finding your own way in this world. 

I don’t like having to do these posts, but unfortunately my laptop that I borrowing has been returned :/

Those of you who have been following me a long time should know the drill, haha.

Getting on here will be very tricky, but not impossible. I’ll try to get on as much as I can, but even once a week may be difficult, I don’t know.  When I am on, again there will be less self harm related things because the computer tends to save what I type in.

However I will still reply to asks as soon as I am able to, if anyone needs to talk. It may be a while, but I will get to it as soon as I can.

I still love you guys :( *tears* so don’t give up on me! As soon as I buy my own laptop, I will be on here like BAMN. Stay strong, kia kaha, & never lose hope.

P.S. I seriously have some BRILLIANT stuff to update the self harm page with but it’s going to take a long time, so it needs to be when I’m on a laptop again. So sorry, but when I get it done you will love me k :D ♥

P.P.S. (Yes I really just P.P.S’d you) I am leaving my blog orange HAHAHAHA. Who knows when I’ll change it. Nah maybe when I get on next :)

Sunberries xoxo                           

March the 1st= Self Injury Awareness Day. Soo..because I live in New Zealand, I also live in the future, guys. March 1st has been and gone for me :) & I can tell you it’s been a great day! Haha, anyway my blog is going ORANGE to support this, check it out. So if it’s March the 1st in your country - do wear orange, show your support it is much appreciated. xoxo

patachkiepirate asked: All I want you to know Is your self harm section Just gave me major inspiration. I relapsed into harming about 5 months ago and wasn't quite sure how to stop I started the butterfly project today and its been helping but I needed more. and that's what you gave me more. hopefully from the things i learned I can turn 7 hours I have now into 7 day into forever without cutting. Thank you.

it always makes my day to know I helped someone :D it’s an honour, my new pirate friend :)

our-teenage-hearts asked: I love your Self Harm topic. It's very thoroughly written and helpful.. wish I could reblog it! <3

I totally posted a response to this & then it vanished..anyway hope this works this time. You can reblog it, whenever I update the page I usually make a post with the content, just look for any ‘self harm page’ posts on my blog. & good news, I’ll be doing a really big update soon I have heaps more info I’ve collected - but it’s taking me quite some time organizing it ;) xo

haymitch-approves asked: Hello :) Thank you so much for your blog. Thank you for being a wonderful person. Thank you for not being judgemental. Thank you for making me smile every time I see you on my dash :) You're helping me so, so much without even knowing it. So thank you :)

Ahhh you are so welcome! This made me smile, thankyou. I appreciate this :) xo

I haven’t posted in a while! I actually went out of town for a few days quite spontaneously. New Zealand is a great place for road tripping :)

I realize I haven’t talked to all of my followers, & I just want to say that I am definitely appreciative of you guys, I try to check on all of you.

And you reading this right now - know that I’m not talking about a generic list of people, I am talking to you directly as an individual. Please don’t ever hesitate to ask me anything, I swear I am one of the few truly non judging people. Want to know how? Because I’ve made so many mistakes, I completely empathise with people for being as human as I am. You aren’t weird, a failure, untouchable, invisible, unwanted, pathetic, unworthy, or messed up. You’re human. And I’m not going to judge you for it, ever.

If you’re feeling lonely at night..go outside, stare at the stars. I will be looking at them too.